And then just when you've given up on humanity-- it surprises you again. 

When I get lonely, I'm not lonely for a physical connection with someone, I'm lonely for a kindred spirit; someone to relate too. 

You light me up.

I am so excited to have made a new friend tonight-- someone with so much energy and passion it spills out on to me and revives my broken spirit just before I slip into apathy too. He has so much faith in the people around him, and drive within him, it's inspiring. 

Activism is not dead yet. 

The activism of this community and the acts of defiance we make in our everyday lives. I will not be bogged down by the people around me. I will seek out new and interesting outlets to keep me excited about what we are doing here, which is all that we can do. I will not be intimidated by the ridiculous definition of success and happiness you all have been spoon-fed since your teen years by the media. 

Your way of life does not define me.

And I will try to learn to be more gentle with myself, I can't blame my heart for the things of the past. I must trust myself, even past me. I trust that I will never forget this and that I will learn from it all. Over and over until it sticks.