and here we are at the end of a squandered day. 

i'm listening to the song from the "where the wild things are" trailer over and over

because i was immediately entranced by that trailer

that brought me back to cam's facebook and a video of him playing music. 

i haven't seen him in so long. 

we're not all going to be together for a long time now. that has been becoming more and more clear to me the past week or so. 

i have those half dreaming panic dreams about it before i fall asleep. 

almost as much as i have those half dreams about bird sounds that i can't id. 

so much is about to change 

and that's ok

but real change this time

ever onward i suppose. 

maybe when we leave this space and find where we should all be our lives will erupt into a happy chorus like in this song, and that's how you know, enough now. and will stop again for a while. 

i'll be productive tomorrow honestly. 

tonight was fun though, 

margaritas, yum.