I have never felt so torn apart
or so self righteous
with so many words in my mind
that are in direct conflict with each other.

a series of events
and overlaying thoughts
leave my body physically on edge
my brow furrows
muscles tighten
my stomach flips and holds like I'm going to throw up.

then I look for justification of my person
and it's in Michigan
and it resists my touch
and it makes my body ache with lack of response.

how did I get here?
why is this digging so deep?
why am I so easily shaken?